Cooking Adventures

Cooking with mum

Is the best thing for me.

Relearning skills I have lost for

Various reasons.

We have started 

A recipe book 📚 

This is a great thing!

I love 💖 my mum

To the moon and back. 🌑 

We have laughing 😂 fits

Together. 

Lots and lots

Of fun 

Together.

Being in control!

I get scared of freezing up.

I have to learn to be in control

And not worry what people think.

Freezing up or what we call

Catatonia in the context of Autism.

Is a very complex condition.

However I’m learning 

To be in control.

I don’t freeze up

As often as I have done

In the past.

In the control seat.

I was prayed for last 

Weekend.

And the vision they got.

Was for me to

Have fun

With God!

Now I have to think

What fun

Is God 

Referring too!

I’m sure I’ll figure it out

But not knowing what that

Fun is. 

Is making my tummy be

In knots.

I’ll get through 

As I have my mum 

On board as well.

Kinda have to have mum

On board

Because I’m 

Living with her after all

Learning to get on 

Is the best present 

For me to get

From God. 

New Chapter in My Life

Last year 

I developed 

Stress induced psychosis.

This came as a complete shock

to myself and my family.

I spent 6 weeks in hospital.

I was doing too many things.

Eating unhealthy foods

In chronic pain daily

And so many other things.

Simply taking on too many

advocacy, work and study.

This is was lead me to

becoming severely unwell.

However through it all.

My sister became closer to me

I'm happy to call my sister

My biggest advocate to me

That sees me as her sister

Rather then just that 

DISABLED SISTER

She sees me as 

a sister, a aunty.

My sister loves me 

And I love her back.

A new chapter has started

Now I'm living with my mum again. 

Back in my home town. 

Having a break from studies. 

God has a different plan for my life

Then what I expected. 

I don't know what his plan is for me. 

However I trust God completely for 

what is to come.

Some employment places have kept me on.

I guess that is a start

but I'm back in some day services programmes.

Letting my brain rest and recover. 

Devaluing Autistic Rights Is Not Ok!

Here in New Zealand

We still do not have equal rights.

Our rights are squashed.

Valuing Autistics lives is

not where it should be in New Zealand.

The Autistic sector

is grossly underfunded

BY EVERYONE IN NEW ZEALAND

BY ALL THE GOVERNMENT DEPARTMENTS

1 in 68 individuals are Autistic

Autistic children grow into Autistic adults!

Our needs do not go away, it is with us for life. 

Dream Big

I like to research about Autism

I feel scared and anxious

When I try something new

I was not good at it the first time I tried it

Because I could

Barely write a paragraph

Let alone spell

Or

Know how to ask for help

I had to make a choice

To give it my best shot

Because Autism is

My passion

After I am Autistic

I was eager

To understand myself

And how I operate 

Differently to Neuro-Typicals

I eventually made it

Because clearly

I can write paragraphs now

I can do everything through him who gives me strength -

Is what got me through 

The beginning stages

Of being taught how to research.

Even though I make mistakes

And can fall down

God is always with me

And he wants me to not give up

Giving up means throwing away

Opportunities, not listening to what

God has planned for my life.

When I'm afraid, I need to

Evaluate whether this is something

What God wants me try or whether

He is protecting me from doing harm

To myself

Listening to God can be hard at times

But it is the good thing to do

He will reward me

When I get to Heaven

There has been times when

It seemed impossible to follow through

With my dreams when I submit 

Presentations to present at conferences

Sometimes they get declined altogether

Other times they get accepted

And yes sometimes I get declined

To give a oral presentation

But I'm offered to do

A poster presentation instead

God still wants me to soar on

Because He believes in my abilities!

Neuro Diverse Team World Trip United - Who's In

I sit here

unable 

to

travel the world

due to lack

of

money.

However

I already

travel

the

world.

How can this be!

Internet,

World Wide Web

Laptops,

iPads,

Cellphones

Electricity,

Power.

The ability to type my thoughts!

People,

Look,

See,

Ask,

Receive.

This is how I travel the world already!

Do I wish

to

physically

see

the

world.

Sure I do!

At the

moment.

I can't.

I have to be happy with what I can do now!

God

works

through

me.

It is not through me, but through Christ!

That

the

World.

Looks,

Sees,

Ask,

Receives. 

Their answers to their questions about what it is like to be Autistic!

To be

Autistic.

Means

sometimes

not

having

the

money

to

travel

the

World.

This is true also for Neuro Typicals!

But even

more so,

for 

disabled

and neuro diverse

people.

Sometimes we just don't get hired!

Or do not have the ability

to work full time.

Or simply

because 

people

are blinded

by the

old thoughts

and theories 

of

that 

non speaking

autistics

are incapable

to ever

work!

Non speaking Autistics - Speak Out!

Are we listening?

Are you listening?

Does having the ability to work

mean we also have to physically talk?

Or can we simply be ourselves?

Can Neuro Typcials

Accept Us 

For who we are are. 

For who God made us to be!

That is yours, mine, and the worlds independent decision to make!

I've made my decision.

That through Christ

I am able

You are able

The world is able

Without acceptance we are not able!

Through acceptance we are able!

I love the Lord Jesus Christ!

For he made me

who I am

who you are

what the world is.

But is it sin, or arrogance or simply not having the ability

to accept us for who we are!

We accept Neuro Typicals

some have hurt us.

Some have been very good to us.

But to me God is the only person

that will ever remain Faithful to me. 

The only person that will completely 100%

Believe in me

Even if I stuff up

Even if I do not have the physical ability to speak!

As here I am able to type to you now!

Is that not my thoughts right now!

If you believe someone else has written this for me?

Or you simply think I'm too able to be moderate to severely autistic?

Think again as you are judging me

while I do not judge you

for judging me.

As this 

is 

God's

place to judge.

I already have justice

because

I believe in myself

and God believe's in me whole heartily.

I have one wish, my wish is for you

to know God

in

the

ways

that I know God to be.

A very loving, caring God.