Thursday, 16 May 2019

Cooking Adventures

Cooking with mum
Is the best thing for me.

Relearning skills I have lost for
Various reasons.

We have started 
A recipe book 📚 
This is a great thing!

I love 💖 my mum
To the moon and back. 🌑 

We have laughing 😂 fits
Together. 
Lots and lots
Of fun 
Together.



Thursday, 28 March 2019

Being in control!

I get scared of freezing up.
I have to learn to be in control
And not worry what people think.

Freezing up or what we call
Catatonia in the context of Autism.
Is a very complex condition.

However I’m learning 
To be in control.

I don’t freeze up
As often as I have done
In the past.

In the control seat.

I was prayed for last 
Weekend.
And the vision they got.
Was for me to
Have fun
With God!

Now I have to think
What fun
Is God 
Referring too!

I’m sure I’ll figure it out
But not knowing what that
Fun is. 
Is making my tummy be
In knots.

I’ll get through 
As I have my mum 
On board as well.

Kinda have to have mum
On board
Because I’m 
Living with her after all

Learning to get on 
Is the best present 
For me to get
From God. 

Thursday, 21 March 2019

On the Road to getting my Driver licence.

Yesterday I done something 
Brave
That will help me towards independence.

I brought my L plates
And my AA membership.

Mums going to teach
Me to drive.
I can’t wait.

Hopefully going to get
My Restricted 
Driver licence.

That’s my goal
And I know through
God
I will achieve it.



Thursday, 14 March 2019

New Chapter in My Life

Last year 
I developed 
Stress induced psychosis.

This came as a complete shock
to myself and my family.

I spent 6 weeks in hospital.
I was doing too many things.
Eating unhealthy foods
In chronic pain daily
And so many other things.
Simply taking on too many
advocacy, work and study.

This is was lead me to
becoming severely unwell.

However through it all.
My sister became closer to me
I'm happy to call my sister
My biggest advocate to me
That sees me as her sister
Rather then just that 
DISABLED SISTER
She sees me as 
a sister, a aunty.

My sister loves me 
And I love her back.

A new chapter has started
Now I'm living with my mum again. 
Back in my home town. 
Having a break from studies. 

God has a different plan for my life
Then what I expected. 
I don't know what his plan is for me. 
However I trust God completely for 
what is to come.

Some employment places have kept me on.
I guess that is a start
but I'm back in some day services programmes.
Letting my brain rest and recover. 

Friday, 7 April 2017

Devaluing Autistic Rights Is Not Ok!

Here in New Zealand
We still do not have equal rights.
Our rights are squashed.

Valuing Autistics lives is
not where it should be in New Zealand.

The Autistic sector
is grossly underfunded
BY EVERYONE IN NEW ZEALAND
BY ALL THE GOVERNMENT DEPARTMENTS

1 in 68 individuals are Autistic

Autistic children grow into Autistic adults!

Our needs do not go away, it is with us for life. 







Sunday, 15 January 2017

Dream Big

I like to research about Autism
I feel scared and anxious
When I try something new
I was not good at it the first time I tried it
Because I could
Barely write a paragraph
Let alone spell
Or
Know how to ask for help
I had to make a choice
To give it my best shot
Because Autism is
My passion
After I am Autistic
I was eager
To understand myself
And how I operate 
Differently to Neuro-Typicals
I eventually made it
Because clearly
I can write paragraphs now
I can do everything through him who gives me strength -
Is what got me through 
The beginning stages
Of being taught how to research.

Even though I make mistakes
And can fall down
God is always with me
And he wants me to not give up
Giving up means throwing away
Opportunities, not listening to what
God has planned for my life.

When I'm afraid, I need to
Evaluate whether this is something
What God wants me try or whether
He is protecting me from doing harm
To myself
Listening to God can be hard at times
But it is the good thing to do
He will reward me
When I get to Heaven

There has been times when
It seemed impossible to follow through
With my dreams when I submit 
Presentations to present at conferences
Sometimes they get declined altogether
Other times they get accepted
And yes sometimes I get declined
To give a oral presentation
But I'm offered to do
A poster presentation instead
God still wants me to soar on
Because He believes in my abilities!

Friday, 30 December 2016

Neuro Diverse Team World Trip United - Who's In

I sit here
unable 
to
travel the world
due to lack
of
money.

However
I already
travel
the
world.

How can this be!

Internet,
World Wide Web
Laptops,
iPads,
Cellphones
Electricity,
Power.

The ability to type my thoughts!

People,
Look,
See,
Ask,
Receive.

This is how I travel the world already!

Do I wish
to
physically
see
the
world.

Sure I do!

At the
moment.
I can't.

I have to be happy with what I can do now!

God
works
through
me.

It is not through me, but through Christ!

That
the
World.
Looks,
Sees,
Ask,
Receives. 

Their answers to their questions about what it is like to be Autistic!

To be
Autistic.
Means
sometimes
not
having
the
money
to
travel
the
World.

This is true also for Neuro Typicals!

But even
more so,
for 
disabled
and neuro diverse
people.

Sometimes we just don't get hired!
Or do not have the ability
to work full time.
Or simply
because 
people
are blinded
by the
old thoughts
and theories 
of
that 
non speaking
autistics
are incapable
to ever
work!

Non speaking Autistics - Speak Out!

Are we listening?
Are you listening?
Does having the ability to work
mean we also have to physically talk?
Or can we simply be ourselves?

Can Neuro Typcials
Accept Us 
For who we are are. 
For who God made us to be!

That is yours, mine, and the worlds independent decision to make!

I've made my decision.
That through Christ
I am able
You are able
The world is able

Without acceptance we are not able!
Through acceptance we are able!

I love the Lord Jesus Christ!
For he made me
who I am
who you are
what the world is.

But is it sin, or arrogance or simply not having the ability
to accept us for who we are!

We accept Neuro Typicals
some have hurt us.
Some have been very good to us.
But to me God is the only person
that will ever remain Faithful to me. 
The only person that will completely 100%
Believe in me
Even if I stuff up
Even if I do not have the physical ability to speak!

As here I am able to type to you now!

Is that not my thoughts right now!

If you believe someone else has written this for me?
Or you simply think I'm too able to be moderate to severely autistic?

Think again as you are judging me
while I do not judge you
for judging me.
As this 
is 
God's
place to judge.

I already have justice
because
I believe in myself
and God believe's in me whole heartily.

I have one wish, my wish is for you
to know God
in
the
ways
that I know God to be.

A very loving, caring God.